That's right folks...
I made it to the 9 month marker!
Which also means that if I were to give birth today, chances are this little dude would be very healthy!
YAY! I've survived the first part of parenting.
I realize that I haven't really written many blogs throughout this pregnancy.
It really hasn't been much to write about.
I have a feeling though, that I'll look back on this experience and wish I had.
Dang it.
So, I'll use this time to recap the highlights of the past 9 months.
When I was about 20 weeks, I was feeling great!
And while I was gaining more weight than I should have...
I was still fitting in most of my jeans/shorts if I used the belly band or hair tie trick.
This little dude has been sitting pretty low the entire pregnancy.
So I was all like, "I'm not going to buy any maternity clothes, what a waste"
Well, as of the past week or two...my mistake.
Maybe karma came to bite me in the ass for saying such nonsense...
but here I sit in nothing but yoga pants and inner thighs covered in stretch marks that look like I was mauled by a bear.
*facepalm*
Ethan's wardrobe has become my wardrobe and I've chosen to ignore my side of the closet to avoid the onset of tears and frustration.
However, when I do get into these types of moods, I take a look at our 3D ultrasound pictures and just smile.
He's already worth it.
This little guy is going to look just like his daddy.
And while it would have been nice to see one of my own features on that little picture, I picked a dang good looking husband for a reason!
We're going to have a freaking cute kid!
I can't wait to see whether he is blonde or brunette,
has hair or doesn't,
or
has blue or brown eyes.
Because when it comes to these sorts of things, Ethan and I were complete opposites as babies!
Lately, I have been experiencing some Braxton Hicks.
They come and go and have never turned into anything worth making a trip to the hospital for.
A long bath, or the belly bandit with it's heating pad usually does the trick.
(PS: Pregnant ladies, I HIGHLY recommend the
belly bandit! I was lucky enough to have a friend lend hers to me...it's been a life saver some days. Not to mention, it'll help bounce my belly back post partum)
Baths have become one of my most favorite parts of the day.
They really help take the weight off my back.
So here is a list of some of my favorite "Pregnant Amber" things:
Roasted Marshmellows
Warm Milk ( I don't even like milk )
Peaches
Ice Water (emphasis on the ICE)
The Belly Bandit
Tums (darn heartburn)
Yoga Pants
Toms shoes
Pillows (like 4 of them)
Sports Bras
Baths
I'm sure there are others that I cannot currently think of.
With the arrival of our little peanut being so close,
my brain basically ticks nonstop.
Here are a few questions that constantly keep me up at night:
What will our life look like after he is born?
Will our relationship change?
Is my child going to be a terribly, fussy heathen that hates everything and everyone?
Will I lose all of my childless friends?
Will I have nothing better to talk about than spit up, teething, and diaper blowouts?
I know that the answer to most of these questions lies within my own actions. But I cannot help but be terrified. I don't want to be the mother that shares every detail of my little ones day on Facebook. I don't want to feel like I cannot contribute to a conversation unless it revolves around my baby. I can't stand being around those types of moms as it is. I do understand that this is how women relate to each other in our current stage of life. However, I feel like there is a time and place. So people...if I start to turn into one of them, SLAP ME!
When I feel the need to brag about my kid, I'll blog about it.
So you people can choose your suffering :)
I also hope that Ethan and I find a parenting system that works for us.
This doesn't worry me nearly as much as the previous situation.
I know there will be trying times when we are both sleep deprived and frustrated.
But those are the times that I see what I love in Ethan the most.
I'm lucky to have found a calm, and compassionate husband who never raises his voice or loses his temper. He knows to leave me be when I'm frustrated and acting like a moron, and knows that sometimes all I need is a hug, without any words.
Oh my, that was mushy.
But seriously...
He's the best and I'm so very lucky.
I'm now starting to put together a list of things to pack for the hospital.
Looking these things up freaks me out a bit.
Labor is Scary! And Gross!
Once I stop working, (next week), I'll have lots of time to update and post pictures of our hospital bag.
I have almost everything set aside for the little guy already.
They're pretty easy since the hospital supplies most of what they'll need.
There are a few things I still have to purchase for myself.
Mostly nursing friendly bras, PJs, and other misc. items.
I'm thinking of just getting a zip up/sweat pant outfit from VS for after delivery.
I need some warm socks or slippers for roaming the hallways.
I also have to type up/write down a birth plan.
(I'm not going in with any expectations necessarily. I am requesting to avoid the administration of pitocin and the administration of an epidural before I reach 4 cm. I am also requesting that there be a delay in the cord clamping and that baby stays on my chest for a full hour immediately after delivery. I hate women that preach about their labor decisions, so if you have questions about why...you can ask me or look it up yourself :-D)
I obviously know that any and all of these may change if their is a health risk to the baby.
And, we need to install the car seat!
Here are a list of things that are currently freaking me out:
I'm afraid of needles.
I'm afraid of hospitals.
I'm afraid of the animalistic sounds I may make during labor (sorry Ethan)
I'm extremely behind on sleep and I'm afraid I won't catch up before it's too late.
I'm afraid that Ethan will look "down there" as I push out our little man and be scarred for life...
I'm afraid I'll never lose the extra weight.
I'm afraid that breastfeeding may not be an option for whatever reason.
I'm afraid that everything I think my labor will be like, will not, and I'll be whisked away and cut open with a giant knife and won't be able to immediately hold my peanut.
I'm afraid our dog, Reagan, will be angry with us when we return...who cares about Sheldon ;)
What I do know, is that we will figure it all out.
However long it takes, our family will be happy and more complete than before!
I just can't wait to meet this little guy.
The little guy that's been bruising my ribs with kicks and punches.
The little guy that literally takes my breath away because my lungs have no room and no where to go.
The little guy that reminds me that my bladder is a quarter full and that just isn't acceptable.
This little guy: